There is nothing worse than getting a phone call from the doctor when you are not expecting to hear from her. She called me yesterday because one of the swabs she took when I went to see her came back "negative". I have some sort of infection (as usual) that has been associated with pre-term labor and a poor cervix. I guess more than anything she really seemed frantic. That made me really nervous. So, anyways she sent in a perscription for some antibiotics. I went to go and pick them up and they said because I don't have insurance it was going to cost $93!!!! I don't know about anyone else but I don't EVER just have $93 extra dollars to spend on ANYTHING! Talk about an emotional breakdown! So not only am I freakin out because of the initial phone call I am freakin out because I had no way to pick up the 7 frickin pills that I really need. I had to borrow money from my room mate which I hate doing. Luckily when I went back, the very nice gentleman at the pharmacy said he found a program that gave me a discount so I only ended up paying $55. Way better than 93 but still pretty spendy. Ugg. I keep trying not to over think the situation but it is really hard. I don't want to have complications. I want it to be normal like everyone else. I know that isn't the case. I know that there are people that have experienced or that will experience what I have but sometimes I do feel alone. And I feel like I have to hold it together for everyone else's sake.
Well I have a couple days off so I am going to hang out at home and get lots of rest and try really hard not to think about it. Oh and the antibiotics that she gave me, the first thing it says under side effects is nausea and vomiting so......yay me! NOT! It's kindof funny, I have pills to stop the nausea and then I have pills that cause the nausea. Should be an interesting weekend.